Love vs Bread

"The truth is, only when you choose love over bread, thats when you are truly at your happiest."

the GIRL whom will be my life.

basically this post is just to write down some simple basic “criteria” or “what I am looking for” points as to what I want for my future, and hopefully final, girlfriend.

The points are not in order:

1. it just happen to came into my attention that, i actually want a girl whom could trust and love me so much that, she will never get jealous; as i would also do likewise, as i am always outrageously trusty of my past gfs.
2. she must have the type of look that i like
3. she must not be fat ( she can be average or with little paddings though )
4. she must have a very pleasant character/personality - that people would love to hang out with her
5. she must not see money more important that love - that she would choose love over bread (i know its difficult…)
6. she must have basic courtesy, manners and filial piety.
7. she must be able to converse well with me.
8. she must not be spendthrift or shopaholic (once in a while is okay…)
9. i must be super in love with her.

so far i can only think of these… will add on if i can think of any others…

Courage in the face of Reality

As much as I see the new year as a great start, the truth is that there is a lot that didnt really go my way.

And being that typical emo pisces, such “misfortune” could be easily devastated. But because 2012 is the year i will force the change i desired, i just refused to give in.

There kept having this sense of danger of repeating past mistakes and screwing things that I values up.

But i will stay resilient; and continue to work toward my goal of becoming a very eligible bachelor.

Hope things goes my way!

[tumblr] new year - 2012.

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2012 - The Year of Actions

New Year Eve Celebration is Awesome~~!!!!

Sometimes its really like that, when things are really at the least expected, it often turns out to be really pleasant and surprising.

Just when I thought I gonna spend my NYE just like many other NYE I had: at Marina Bay area - plans suddenly took a very quick turn just 4 hours from the new year, ended up at the East Coast Park. I really have to everything to thank to this person.





Other than making great new friends, getting guessed to be 21-25 years old - I also managed to see how the sailors celebrated: by firing their flares!

Watched the sun rise myself, walk myself to the ground - and then still go to Orchard to support LATW's Dont Forget Your Sleague Day initiative.

Awesome. The power of taking action despite all odds is amazing. I gonna keep at it!

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On another front:

After paying so much attention thru the dark hours and then so much thought thru out the rest of the day; plus keep visiting that profile page almost at least once every hour - so much so until the first thing i wake up, is to have my heart pounding so fast, and my mind racing like there is no more tomorrow; doubts and desperate thoughts blazes as if the castle i built in the air going to crash down like mashmellows.

I gonna die very quickly of heart failure at this rate if this is going to be a common occurence~ LOL! Its a great start to 2012 though. =P

I now have totally no idea whats gonna happen next liao. =x

Towards 2012, the year of awesomeness!

Finally, we are here on this day again. 31st December. My favourite day on the calendar.

Just as per tradition, this post is going to be about my hopes and resolutions for 2012.

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After so many years of "sub-par standard Mingji" - I think 2012 will be the year I get my act together, and for once - BECOME AWESOME.

Years of poor "shape" (body), and the gradual fattening HAVE TO END. Just as per my Project Awesome, I will continue the newly formed weekly working out habit. Other than swim-cycle-gym-kickboxclass weekly routine: I hope to build on it and add Batminton (probably weekly or every other week); jog/running into the mix (hopefully my foot will heal faster and allow that to happen). Of course football gonna continue to be a "staple" of my sporting new life.


Any resolution will never be complete without my hopes for a better outcome for business and finance. I MUST build on this little momentum that I had groomed over the past 2 months, and push January/February 2012 into a break out month. Get another 1 or 2 clients over the January, and then HIRE my first employee! And hopefully by the end of next year, I would have a few employees with my own office space. =}

If possible, I would also like to venture into a new business, either in the form of Joji Intelligence (which is pretty difficult) or possibly in Social Media Marketing / Marketing or even Events. Play by ear on this one.


In term of self development, I would want to learn how to Do Programming (web/app/software development). Learn Canoeing. Get Bike License. Get back the Habit of Reading. Optionally, pick up Japanese/Korean.


On my "cyber" front, I want to revamp limmingji.com into a personal blog (minus emo stuff). Revamp Joji websites. And if I can make the time, create a online marketing product on love and relationship. =}


On the shopping front, I do like to get a new laptop, a new bicycle (for longer distant cycling), a suit complete with tie, PS3 with a HD TV (when business flies) and a new wardrobe of clothes (when business flies).


And about girls and love; I do not think I gonna dive into another relationship so quickly anymore... I want to make more female friends, date a bit more, know what I really want... and hopefully in 2012, I will be more certain of what I want, and the rest, I leave it to fate.


That looks one hell of a new year resolutions and hopes. Lets work towards that, and we will see... =}

2011 in Retrospect...

Finally, its coming to the end of 2011.

And as per tradition, on the 30th of December every year, I will write a review abt the year; while 31st, I will write about the hopes for the next year.

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I think 2011 had been quite a rollercoaster ride. It started with a high, where things seemed to be flowing well, got businesses coming in, have a lovely gf and hopes are really high for the year.

But unfortunately, it turns out that one of the "major" client is a toxic account, dragging the project and payment for 6 mths, before I only receiving the puny little sum for the classified ad, one project cancelled, and another project stopped - and then resumed last month, and while its completed, I havent even received the payment even up till today. And the client said during the early month (jan/feb) that its "URGENT". Lesson learnt.

My lovely, now ex-gf, brought me to Phuket for my birthday. I enjoyed the trip though with lotsa uneasiness as regard to that toxic client's works. She sponsored the entire trip, but she made some mistake with the finance planning, ended up burning quite a bit of cash that unnecessary. But there is nothing I can do to help, as I'm still scrapping the bit in my difficult entrepreneurial journey.

Then in June, its Bali. Ah~ Beautiful Bali.... Enjoyed the trip a lot more - it was for our 1 year anniversary. It was beautiful... riding horses and the sunset...

But then, things start to turn awry as the draggy business wears out the patience of my love; and her discontent at work pouring into our relationship as well... from bad to worse, the relationship finally ended as she finally gave up, in pursue of what I think is "the lifestyle she want" over "indefinite wait for this ill-fated lover".

Then came months of anguish, frustration, sadness and depression. The autumn period into the early winter is a dangerous stage of depression and I had seriously considered medical help - seeking anti-depressant. Then just as I decided on it, my mood starts to turn better and my depression slowly recedes... Work rate and productive slowly recover with the fading depression.

As I finally concluded that the broken relationship is irreconcilable, I turn the attention towards myself totally. With the moral and mental support of Jason, comes my futile 10 weeks 10 kg slimming challenge (it failed, I only dropped 3kg). I shaved my head to slap myself conscious that my current state of being is in no readiness for a new life nor new courtship. I signed up a Kick-boxing aerobic class as the only male student there. Its Project Awesome. (inspired by Barney from "How I know your mother" - which is one of the significant new "hobby/interest" - a new fav drama/sitcom series I gotten in 2011)

Project Awesome is a personal development project where I will slim down, become fit, become well groomed, well dressed, with a stable and successful business - and that I will become desirable again to the eyes of women; a life where work is balanced with social life and exercises; where gyming, swimming and sports is a regular part of my weekly life. I need my self-esteem back, I need my confidence back, I need to be what I always meant to be. To find back the real Mingji.

Now, I only left with 3 hamsters (Hugo, Thunder and Dior) - grateful to her that she left the 3 hamsters that bonded the best with me; while the other 7 now resides at her place. My aquarium is still alive, with Tut tut, Ah Beng and Bu Bai still ruling the MingjiSea. I would miss her dog though: Fluffy. ={

Ultimately, the most significant event in 2011, is still about losing someone I loved; and that from that, for once in my life, I persisted to the very very end (in something; anything) that, when I come round to face the fact - I have no regrets whatsoever. I did my best, literally. I will do likewise for Joji.

The past 3-4 months shaped what I had thought my 2011 review would be, so much that... I cant really write it any more "beautiful" than the blandness of it as above.

I hope Project Awesome could be pulled off, and I can finally be awesome.