Muffled pain.

Now, mybubbles is no longer really my bubbles anymore.

Apparently, she had been staying with some guy nowadays, as I had suspected and predicted; things just turn and change so quickly, its amazing how she is supposed to be the one whom is having a very loving relationship with me.

My heartache now feels more like arthritis or my heel injury than a stab on the blade. The pain is muffled but still real. As much as I emotionally love her... I have to keep a conscious watch to keep my emotions in checked and move myself away from her. Its getting toxic by the day....

With Raine, at least to me, there is still a very slight chance of getting back together (if I ever think that's an option; although I think is pretty unlikely at this stage); but with bubbles.... I really dun think its ever a good idea anymore - the way she treated me, her decisions, her actions - made a relationship back together, a toxic one.

It does somehow reaffirm my certain perspective on girls... 

Life have to go on however....